dramaturgy: ([Misc] Rocking out.)
So, I officially quit life on Sunday after my grandmother sent me a forward that started with a rape joke. (If you rape a prostitute, is it rape or shoplifting? GET IT? SINCE PROSTITUTES ARE PAID FOR SEX WHEN YOU TAKE IT WITHOUT PAYING, IT'S SHOPLIFTING. HUR HUR.) I replied all and said, "It's rape. Also it's not funny. I thought a former cop would know better." (It was forwarded to her by an online friend who is a former cop.) I haven't heard from her since then so my guess is that she's pulling the "Well, I'm old, and I get to say what I want because I was brought up ~in a different time." Yeah, that old chestnut. GRANDMA. YOU WERE BORN IN 1935, BUT THE ACTUAL FOR REALS MIDDLE AGES. Whatever. She also says "coloreds" and "the gays" and I know I should feel bad because she doesn't get around so well and is probably lonely, puttering around her house all day, but I really don't think that's an excuse. And it makes me mad.

So I quit life around 9:45 AM, climbed into the shower and cried until I ran out of hot water, and then climbed back into bed and started rewatching Ugly Betty. But it really wasn't just that. It was just the straw that broke the camel's back.

This whole business with Gabrielle Giffords and the assassination attempt has just left me heartsick and upset. (I will admit to having The Ballad of Czolgoz and the rest of Assassins running through my head for most of the day on Saturday; I am not a perfect person.) I watched the guy's YouTube channel and it's way fucking creepier than any horror movie I've ever seen. The fact that one of the people dead is a nine year old girl who had just been elected to her student council and taken because she was interested in public service and things of that nature AND had been born on 9/11 (ACTUAL 9/11, not a 9/11 since then, HER MOTHER WAS IN THE HOSPITAL GIVING BIRTH ON 9/11/2001) is just the frosting on a very depressing cake.

Then I find out that Sarah Palin had a campaign ad that was basically a hit list and a map with crosshairs on the congressional districts of those on the list and Gabrielle Giffords was on that list. I was disgusted but unfortunately not shocked. And I know that Sarah Palin didn't put the gun in the guy's hand and say "Go for it!" but if I had made that list and that map, we would not be having this conversation right now because the FBI would have broken a land speed record getting to my house AND I WOULD NOW BE IN FBI CUSTODY. You know what, I damn well don't care about Sarah Palin. My hatred peaked sometime last year and right now I'm just sick of her. I think she's stupid and irrelevant at best and dangerous at worst. When you tell your followers to reload, not retreat and show them a hitlist of politicians you don't like, well... even if the Loughner guy didn't care about her, she needs to be fucking called out to explain herself for that ad.

And it's not just her. Everyone who adds to the rhetoric of hate in this country needs to STOP IT and first of all, use their words, and second of all, USE WORDS THAT DON'T INCITE VIOLENCE AGAINST OTHER PEOPLE. I'll be first to admit I'm guilty of it, and it's usually in hyperbole -- how many times this semester did I say I was going to fucking kill my kids? I would never actually. But if all 35 of them had suddenly wound up DEAD I would have been the link between them all and I would have looked pretty damn guilty. At the risk of sounding stupid... with great power comes great responsibility. And your words mean something.

Also, whoever it is that tweets as President Bartlet just made me angry by refusing to acknowledge Sarah Palin should be held responsible. (Toby Ziegler, however, did not disappoint me. Toby has always held a place in my heart, the old curmudgeon. ♥) Seriously, stop turning my fictional hero into an apologist. (I know he's not REAL or anything, so this is kind of stupid, but seriously. [livejournal.com profile] bad_rpers_suck, that's all I'm saying.

Also in the Disappointing Me Thoroughly camp is Jonathan Mandell, aka NewYorkTheater. He writes about theatre for an independent online news source, and occasionally has quoted me in his articles for some of the off the cuff things I say about theatre. I generally like and agree with things that he has to say and quite frankly it's nice to be able to tweet theatre at someone who will tweet you back (although I have had certain people Tweet me back before -- not the point). BUT.

Recently, Bono saw Spider-Man for the first time. Awesome, right? Well. Jenn Damiano was apparently quoted as saying that he had enjoyed himself watching the show. (I am paraphrasing here, but that is pretty much what was said.) Things went apeshit. I was like, "Aw, that's great!" and Mandell tweeted, "He shouldn't be enjoying the show, he should be working on it so WE can enjoy it." (Again, I'm paraphrasing, but that is very close to the actual wording.)

Uh, first of all:
1. That is the most entitled, audience-centric thing I have heard in a long time, and
2. So artists aren't allowed to take pleasure in what they produce?
3. When I saw it, the music wasn't what I thought needed working on.

I tweeted as much to him (well, the second point, I couldn't find a nice way to phrase the first one and the third one is just a can of worms) and he replied (see, so at least he replied) that, "it implies he's a spectator and not an active member of the process." Um. Well, now I think people are just looking for something to bitch about for Spider-Man since nobody else has been injured and reviews aren't officially being made until the show opens next month. Way to take something an actress said and blow it out of proportion.

Anyway. Better news! I hear they're working on a new finale, and T.V Carpio became Arachne. I feel honored to have seen it as early as I did (the fourth preview) and can't wait to go back. Also, Michael Mayer and Billie Joe Armstrong are talking about making American Idiot into a movie (which could be awesome or be horrible) and want to work on an original project together. I hope he remembers my resume. :x
dramaturgy: ([Misc] I am never going to work again)
I have been trying to get an exam copy of the textbook I'm supposed to be teaching. Yes, I went ahead and bought a regular copy 'cause I didn't know what else to do, but then I had a thought, since I am an anxiety-riddled twentysomething who is not happy unless she has something to hyperventilate about (as though my discovered money troubles of yesterday weren't enough): what if there is stuff I NEED in the exam copy? So I tried again to order the book, except their website has a malfunction. It won't let me list my appropriate department at SB. So I decided to contact support which, it turns out, I CAN'T DO because every time it fails to connect.

ARGH.

I'm pretty lucky, because as far as the money thing goes, I have a family that's not going to let me founder into crippling penury. I said I wanted to be a dramaturg and they said, "Awesome! I have no idea what that is, but go for it!" And I said, "Neither do I! But I guess we'll find out!" Fuck this. I give up. You win, life.

Day 15 - A song that describes you

Some days I'm like this:



And some days I'm like this:



Today I think I'm more like this:



List )
dramaturgy: ([QAF] Primal scream.)
I haven't had a hot shower since I came back to Stony Brook. They've mostly been tepid. I would even say that one or two may have flirted with "warm" before disappointing me completely. When I moved in and I had to turn the knob ALL the way to get anything that even approached hot enough for me, I said I could live with that. But at that temperature, I could run the shower and the mirror would fog up. Now I'm lucky if I can get it a little humid in the bathroom.

THIS IS NOT OKAY. WHY DO YOU HATE ME, GOD?

ETA: Also, WHY DO I BOTHER WORKING OUT SOLUTIONS TO PROBLEMS THAT WORK WITH MY SCHEDULE IF NOBODY IS GOING TO READ THEM AND THEN SAY "OH OKAY HOW ABOUT YOU DO X-X:30 TO MAKE UP FOR IT?" NO. NO. NO NO NO.
dramaturgy: ([Heroes] Sandra + Mr Muggles.)
NO.

NO. NO. NO.

ON THE SYLLABUS IT SAYS RESEARCH PAPER. NOWHERE ON THERE DOES IT SAY ANYTHING ABOUT PRESENTATIONS. IT SAYS A THREE TO FIVE PAGE RESEARCH PAPER. FIVE PAGES IS WHAT I HAVE. IF YOU WANTED A PRESENTATION YOU SHOULD HAVE TOLD ME MORE THAN 36 HOURS BEFORE THE CLASS AND 60 HOURS BEFORE I HAVE ANOTHER PRESENTATION DUE.

THIS. THIS IS BULLSHIT.
dramaturgy: ([Disney] GFD!)
OMGBBQWTF IS GOING ON. IMPORTANT PIECES OF MY COMPUTER EXPERIENCE HAVE STOPPED WORKING I.E. THE MOUSE AND THANKS TO STUPID INTERNET I CAN VIEW LIKE ONE WEB PAGE EVERY TEN MINUTES. WHAT IS GOING ON HERE.
dramaturgy: ([Rent] Stop your pain)
I should flock this, you know, in case anyone at corporate at the Movie Gallery is cruising LJ looking for bitching employees to fire or some crazy stalker is going to come shoot me in the face. And even if they were, they would be doing me a favor.

Today I missed the Big Cheese, but according to J he was pleased with how the store looks which is apparently something -- not to mention a good something since we have all been cleaning like freaks. But they guy, turns out, is the manager's boss's boss, and so then I saw my manager's boss, which makes me nervous enough.

You know what, fuck it, I don't want to go through the details. I am just going to bitch. We started selling ~*POWER PLAY*~ also known as ~*LET'S FUCK OVER EVERYONE WHO WORKS IN A SMALL STORE*~. It's supposed to work like Netflix where you buy a package monthly (as in it is a MONTHLY CHARGE, this is important) and for each package you get a certain number of points which then you use to rent movies and games at a discounted rate. Except it's not like Netflix. Because with Netflix, it comes to your house, it really is unlimited, and Netflix probably doesn't face the problem of "What if the customers NEVER EVER BRING THESE BACK?" which is less of a big deal for New Release DVDs if we have 24503968 copies of them, but games? Generally speaking, the most copies of those we have at a time are three or four. And that's if it's going to be a really popular game.

So we have to sell these packages, and when I came in at two none had been sold. So I had three and a half hours, fine. Except Thursday afternoons are dead. I handed out the pamphlets and explained the program fees etc to a lot of people and just about everyone LIKED the idea but they said, "Not today" or "I have to talk it over with my husband/wife" and I said okay, that's fine, we'd be happy to sign them up whenever they were ready! *SMILESMILESMILE*

Well five rolls around and I have to call the DM and leave her a voicemail that we hadn't sold any. I wasn't exactly looking forward to it, but short of selling one to myself I didn't know what I was supposed to do. THERE IS ONLY SO MUCH YOU CAN DO.

So she called back and reamed me out and said to push that, and presales as well. I told her that I had pushed, and offered presales, but nobody's buying. And then about ten minutes later (not even) I got a call from Linda saying WE NEED TO PUSH.

I AM WORKING ON IT I PROMISE YOU.

And then Linda came in because apparently if we don't have one by the end of the day, hours are going to be cut. I don't know how they plan to do that, but a good place to start would be having REALISTIC GOALS AND EXPECTATIONS FOR THE PRODUCT. People are not going to want to start putting a monthly charge on their credit card or account without talking to their spouse about it, and also, I am not going to sell the Power Play to a ten year old who is renting it on their parent's account. It's just not going to happen. I can give them the literature and say to talk to their parent about it (wait, what? OH I DID THAT ALREADY THANK YOU). This is not going to catch on, not right away, and probably not here in DeWitt. Yes there are savings on rentals involved but if they aren't sure if they're going to have the money month-to-month, they would rather pay that extra money in cash. And if they're going to ream people who aren't responsible, honestly, that just pisses me off.

I am so over this job.

I didn't mention this because it ended up falling through but at Lane Bryant one of the assistant managers was applying for a job elsewhere and if she got it and took it then my manager there wanted to know if I was interested in maybe filling the position. And honestly, I would have had to say yes.

I need to get into grad school. NEED.

And now I am going to go mix myself a drink and look for something to eat before SPN comes on.
dramaturgy: ([Buffy] Puppet!Angel is unhappy.)
STOP EATING MY DAMN FOOD.
dramaturgy: ([Buffy] I'll take care of your money!)
I wonder if I took the time to tally the number of users who hate the new LJ profile page (being one of them) as seen in [livejournal.com profile] news and [livejournal.com profile] lj_design, and found it to be something approaching a percentage of their users, they would listen.

I doubt it.
dramaturgy: (Default)
I DON'T WANT A FUCKING CHEESEBURGER.

YOU MAKE CHEESEBURGERS THREE TIMES A WEEK. AT LEAST. I DO NOT WANT ANOTHER FUCKING CHEESEBURGER.

AND I DON'T THINK THESE PEOPLE ON TV HAVE EVER ACTUALLY BEEN SWING DANCING BECAUSE IF THEY HAD BEEN THEY WOULD HAVE KNOWN THAT THE GIRL WOULD NOT BE WEARING HER SWEATER AND HE WOULD NOT BE WEARING A JACKET AND TURTLENECK BECAUSE IF YOU'RE NOT SWEATING YOUR ASS OFF WHILE DANCING YOU'RE PROBABLY NOT DOING SOMETHING RIGHT.

EDIT: DID I MENTION THAT I HATE PEOPLE? THAT'S RIGHT. I HATE 99.5% OF THE HUMAN POPULATION. I LIKE QUITE A LOT OF YOU AND I'M KEEPING A FEW THOUSAND IN RESERVE.
dramaturgy: (Perturbed)
To the Internet community at large:

All right. I've had enough.

Let's get one thing straight.

FANFICTION.NET IS NOT OUT TO "GET YOU". It is a website. It does not have the ability to be pissed off, offended, or vengeful. The adminstrators of the website, however, are people, and I am sure they LOVE reading about how "fucking crappy" their site is that they spend lots of money and time running EVERY SINGLE FUCKING MONTH.

So instead of whining to your Y!Group about how ff.net is being slow again, let's consider that it is not out to get you, it is trying to do what you want it to, and if it can't at that moment THEN IT CAN'T. It didn't pick you to not work for, I guarantee that you are not so special that the administrators of the site would specifically say, "Hey, let's make ______'s day a little more difficult by making the website not work."

Next time you go to complain about ff.net, consider if you could do better and if you find that you couldn't, shut your trap and if you think you could, shut up and try.

No love at all from a very cranky, tired, and ill,

Me
dramaturgy: (Wench!)
HE ATE MY FUCKING CEREAL! >:O NO ONE TOUCHES MY FUCKING CEREAL!
dramaturgy: (Spike)
I know my dad doesn't like to receive ultimatums, but I think I'm going to be giving him one anyway. "Help me find what's wrong with my car by taking it to a professional or I will by myself."
dramaturgy: (Snow)
JESUS CHRIST!!!! SON OF A BITCH!!!

I was on the way home from picking up my pizza and some maniac barrels through an intersection just as I start pulling through, never mind that they had a red light. >< Thank God there was no one behind me, otherwise that might have been bad.

Oh well. I am unharmed, Ron is unharmed, and hopefully that driver isn't wrapped around a telephone pole somewhere.

Tomorrow is Big Bend Speech. I have not practiced. Tomorrow I am supposed to give a speech on journalism based on an interview with a journalist. Kay Luna (said journalist) has not replied to my e-mail yet. Methinks I am going to be in deep shit.

Anyone out there a journalist, by chance?

Tuesday is the See Spot Rock concert. That should be fun. I only know of three other people who are going for sure. Oh well, it'll be my first real concert (as in with no parent in attendance). Yayee.
dramaturgy: (Default)
Well, fuck, its my LJ, if I can't rant here where the Hell can I rant?

I'm sick. )

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