The Icon Faerie

MATT
Do you know—well, of course you do—
What it’s like to stand outside?
To watch the world and wish
You didn’t hurt so much, you cried
I know I’m not the only one
And I know I shouldn’t care
But when I feel these things are real
I wish I felt you there
And if I did, I’d ask you
How come life is so unfair?

PETER
Do you know—well, of course you do—
What it’s like to be afraid?
That nothing will become
Of all the plans that you have made?
So I watch the girls surround him
And he says it’s just a game
I guess that I believe him
But it hurts me just the same
And I’m all about this stupid act
So who am I to blame?

BOTH
Are you there? Are you there?
Do you watch me when I cry?
And if it’s in your power,
How can you sit idly by?
I try so hard to please you
But you never seem to see

MATT
Is it my fate to sit and wait?

PETER
Wonder what my struggle means

MATT
I wish I knew that someone out there cared

PETER
Are you there?

BOTH
Cared for me

MATT
Here, have some wine

PETER
This is holy wine!

MATT
The Father hasn’t blessed it yet

PETER
In that case…

MATT
Grab a chalice

PETER
Thanks.
Life sucks…

MATT
Here, have the rest
So why’d you leave?

PETER
The party?

MATT
Yeah

PETER
I was getting kind of bored

MATT
[Laugh] Oh, me too!

PETER
There’s another reason…

MATT
Yeah?

PETER
It sucks to be ignored

MATT
I know!
I always fight to do what’s right, and this is my reward

PETER
This is my reward

BOTH
Are you there? Are you there?
Can you make some time for me?
They tell me that you’re out there
And they tell me that you see
I try to find the meaning
God, you know how hard I’ve tried
But I don’t know where I’m going
And I don’t have any guide

MATT
They said things would get better
But I guess…they lied

PETER
Are you there?
He needs to give me more!

MATT
I’ll drink to that!

PETER
Who cares if people think we’re fine?
We’ve been through this before!
One day he’ll wake up
And realize all he needs is me
Until then, God, I wish I knew
I need a guarantee

MATT
I need to know for sure that you’ll be there

PETER
Send a sign so that I know you’re there

BOTH
There for me

PETER
Send a sign so that I know you’re there

MATT
Send a sign so that I know you’re there

BOTH
There for me

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow

And I find it kinda funny
I find it kinda sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very mad world mad world

Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday
And I feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me

And I find it kinda funny
I find it kinda sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very mad world ... mad world
Enlarging your world
Mad world

-.-

Why does every sarcastic character have to be coming from "a place"? Why does there have to be a deep-rooted fear of being hurt behind them? Why can't some people just be sarcastic bitches and bastards?

Also, I still don't like or appreciate being on the outs of a loop.

Someday I'll have someone with me to bear my ranting. Until then, you guys have to listen. Sorry.

Agh. Shit is shit, so don't put a sign on it that says 'Gold'.

I wonder if I can take my cousins to a movie tonight. They're 10 and 8 (Jeez they're getting old) and I don't know the probability I'll see them before I go to college and I haven't seen them since June. Waaaah I'll miss them. ::checks movietickets.com::

In other news, Bee gets a hilarious e-mail line of the day for this line in an e-mail written to me this morning:

ARRG I HATE YOU. <3333

::g:: <3

...Well I survived, that's saying something, right?

Fucking Hell.

I tried. And I can't do it. I can't improve the silence.

So I will say nothing at all.