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Banquet training is not happening. Suffice to say I am a lameass and a chicken and think if I make it through this year without killing myself it will be more than I expect at this point.
That said: don't take a year off. Just don't do it. Fuck being broke, fuck being burned out, fuck it all. This is just not working. You will be turned away from jobs because you are overqualified academically and underqualified in experience, and it will be awful.
I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up.
McDonalds is hiring again and I am somewhere in between convincing myself that it wasn't such a bad job, and that it was kind of an awful job because I was mentally exhausted the whole time I worked there and even when I had time off I didn't want to do anything and I am just starting to get anxious and desperate.
I just wish that I was one of those people who has good things just fall into their lap. The famous, world-class actress who just "took an acting class in college for fun" or a writer who just so happens to have their work seen by a hotshot agent or being in the right place at the right time. I hate having to turn over every rock looking for something. I want something to be easy for once.
That said: don't take a year off. Just don't do it. Fuck being broke, fuck being burned out, fuck it all. This is just not working. You will be turned away from jobs because you are overqualified academically and underqualified in experience, and it will be awful.
I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up.
McDonalds is hiring again and I am somewhere in between convincing myself that it wasn't such a bad job, and that it was kind of an awful job because I was mentally exhausted the whole time I worked there and even when I had time off I didn't want to do anything and I am just starting to get anxious and desperate.
I just wish that I was one of those people who has good things just fall into their lap. The famous, world-class actress who just "took an acting class in college for fun" or a writer who just so happens to have their work seen by a hotshot agent or being in the right place at the right time. I hate having to turn over every rock looking for something. I want something to be easy for once.
