Don't look at my resume, look at me - no, not at my shoes, I hate these fucking shoes...

[dramaturgy]

Banquet training is not happening. Suffice to say I am a lameass and a chicken and think if I make it through this year without killing myself it will be more than I expect at this point.

That said: don't take a year off. Just don't do it. Fuck being broke, fuck being burned out, fuck it all. This is just not working. You will be turned away from jobs because you are overqualified academically and underqualified in experience, and it will be awful.

I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up.

McDonalds is hiring again and I am somewhere in between convincing myself that it wasn't such a bad job, and that it was kind of an awful job because I was mentally exhausted the whole time I worked there and even when I had time off I didn't want to do anything and I am just starting to get anxious and desperate.

I just wish that I was one of those people who has good things just fall into their lap. The famous, world-class actress who just "took an acting class in college for fun" or a writer who just so happens to have their work seen by a hotshot agent or being in the right place at the right time. I hate having to turn over every rock looking for something. I want something to be easy for once.

Comments

[irinaauthor.livejournal.com]

People who say the awesome careers just happened to them are lying. Nobody takes one class for fun and then becomes rich and famous. There's a lot of hard work, striving, rejection, and stepping on people that goes into it too.

Just, y'know, if it makes you feel any better. Can you try working one job to pay the bills and then volunteering or something else at a place you'd enjoy? Or what about temping? That pays pretty well, and you'd get to work in an office.

[dramaturgy.livejournal.com]

And I'm sure I know that and that it's true, but sometimes I just want to whine before I get to work. I think it's the Libra in me. ♥

[dementedina.livejournal.com]

I'm taking a year off between army and university, and I think I made the right choice.
Are you takign a year between your first and second degree?

[dramaturgy.livejournal.com]

That was my brilliant idea, mostly because being stage manager for the play last fall plus two seminar classes killed all my time and I didn't have any time to look at grad schools, and I don't have any money. And I'm not really sure what I want my second degree to be, or if it's just going to make me overqualified to work in any field except teaching.

[dementedina.livejournal.com]

If you're not sure what you want your second degree to be, then taking a year of is a really good idea. You don't want to just jump into something.

As to the job part - just keep looking, I'm sure you'll find something better than McDonalds.